I’m a Christian.

My friend Kim posted this on Friendster’s bulletin board and I personally find it very meaningful.

Subject: I’m a Christian.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I’m not shouting I’m clean livin’.
I’m whispering that I was lost,
now I’m found and forgiven.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I don’t speak of this with pride.
I’m confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I’m not trying to be strong.
I’m professing that I’m weak
and need His strength to carry on.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I’m not bragging of success.
I’m admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I’m not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are far too visible,
but God believes I’m worth it.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I still feel the sting of His pain.
I have my share of heartaches
so I call upon His name.

When I say “I’m a Christian”,
I’m not holier than thou.
I’m just a simple sinner who received
God’s good grace, somehow.

May you have a blessed day!

F A I

Do You Remember…?

After not too much of contemplation, I’ve decided to dedicate this very first post to my long-time buddy, Tuck Fei.

Do you remember the days when we were still in good ol’ Ipoh, we would just call each other up and go cycling for an hour or two? We would talk, laugh, cycle through squatter areas, discover hidden shortcuts and basically, have a great time outdoors. The Digimons came and we would pitch our stiff pixel monsters up against Wei Wei’s and end up both being thrashed by his stupid bear-bear. Long gone were the days.

Do you remember when we would go to Yuk Choy Primary’s hall to play badminton and we were always paired together? We were the noobs and we gradually rose through the ranks and beat those good ones. Then remember we would go to ISC in the mornings to play badminton (and I’d always beat your sorry ass) and then go for a swim together? Long gone were the days.

Cycling days went by and we got our driving licenses. Do you remember trying to max out my mum’s Honda Accord along the road in front of Heritage? Yea I chickened-out when we capped 150 but hey, you started tapping the brakes at 140! Then the midnight hot dog days during SPM (not forgetting Agnes I suppose?). Greentown snooker centers and mamaks. Long gone were the days.

Do you remember me asking you to convince your mum to send you to Taylor’s instead of INTI just so that we could be in the same college? Do you remember when you bought me that pair of Mickey Mouse shoes as my belated birthday present just because I said it was really nice (and you ended up buying another pair for yourself)? Long gone were the days.

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Do you remember when I was quite familiarized with the roads in KL and we made pretty frequent trips to Klang and as we ate the bak kut teh, we would both say: “wua hou sik ah hou sik ah mallou”?

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Long gone were the days.

Do you remember when it was your birthday and I tricked you into believing that I can’t make it back to Ipoh to celebrate it with you? Remember I conspired with Phooi Yee and the rest of your ACS gang and set you up for a surprise BBQ party and I had to hide my Wira down that slope so that you wouldn’t see it as you approached Phooi Yee’s house?

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Long gone were the days.

Do you remember before I left for Australia and I invited you over for a BBQ? We went on a last minute, frantic search for a netting for the BBQ pit and yea I know, I know, it was my fault. Do you remember the 2 of us, along with Esther and Hor Pooi getting thrown into the pool for no reason after the BBQ session? Yea that night you took 1 of my shorts and singlets and until today you’re still keeping it. Keep it dude. I want it back when I see you again.

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Long gone were the days.

But dude, do you remember that I have your pendant? It is the pendant that qualifies you application as a lifeguard. And with it, the first ever chain your mum gave you.

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I remember all that. I know that chances are, we won’t be seeing each other ever again. You’re going to New York to further your studies (and I reasonably foresee you staying there after you graduate) and I’ll most probably be applying for an Australian PR.

To be honest with you, I think the time when you came to send me off at the airport was the very last time we got to say “tata!” to each other. Until today I still blame myself for not spending enough time with you. Until today I still regret not having done enough together. I guess we’re not that different after all. We’ve both been looking for a true friend. You found one in me. I never noticed that I always had you until it was all too late. Like Nelly said, “some things in life you take for granted, until they gone, then you’ll realize that you never really had them for real.”

I’m soaked in my own tears now. Well at least I managed to make the first post a memorable one.

In my heart, you’ll always be that special someone who made a difference, my friend.

F A I